Do I trust God's timing? Absolutely! Do I believe he is working behind the scenes...all for the good of everyone involved? Yes! Do I still LONG to hear something from China? Desperately. Recently God led me to study in depth the passage in Matthew about the Faith that moves mountains. During this time, a fellow Lifeline China mom was selling an awesome t-shirt with this phrase on it: "Move Mountains!" I was so thrilled to receive mine a few weeks ago and love wearing it as it reminds me that it is not about how much faith I have but WHO my faith is in. Who do I say that God is? The day I received the t-shirt I wrote these words in my journal:
But it is almost as if I
cannot help but believe that God really is moving mountains. That WE are moving
mountains with faith as small as a mustard seed. The mountains of paperwork and
paperwork delays. The mountains of Chinese culture and government norms. The
mountains of timelines that create fear of provision.
Jesus. Do I believe in
you, or in what you will do? I believe you are sovereign. I believe you care
about me and about "Little Sister" and our family and our well-being. I believe you are
provider. I believe you are all-knowing and all-powerful. I believe you are
healer. I believe you are the WAY MAKER! Good Father, sweet Jesus, make a way
straight through the desert of waiting and bring us to the streams of mercy. I
believe in you. I believe YOU. I will not thirst in this wasteland of waiting.
You love me with an everlasting love. You are making all things new and
beautiful in your time. I believe you are working ALL THINGS FOR THE GOOD OF
THOSE WHO LOVE YOU AND HAVE BEEN CALLED ACCORDING TO YOUR PURPOSE. That’s us. So
do it. Satisfy me in the morning with your unfailing love…satisfy me all day
long. Be my portion.
I have now been "adoption pregnant" for almost 13 months! That is 4 trimesters, friends, and as long as an orca whale!;) The process is different, the wait is different. And God is good. While we trust in his perfect timing, we are learning that there is something to a faith-filled prayer; something to PARTNERING with his Spirit to move mountains. I feel a pressing in my spirit to pray for this little one's file to come to us in September (Happy Birthday to me and Larry), with the possibility of us travelling in November. We have seen God's hand ALL over our staying in Louisville this summer and are so grateful for the more pleasant temperatures and better airfare that November will have to offer. We also feel incredibly blessed to have been home for our church's VBS and to enjoy all the college students and new couples who have joined our Sunday Morning Bible study! We are thankful for the extra time to have as a family of 4, and for the extra rest and time to work on house projects. It will be such a blessing to have a sense of "settled" before bringing her home. We sure would love to have her home for the holidays...
So we would love to have your prayers, joined with ours, lifted up to the Father, offered in the Spirit who intercedes on our behalf. Pray that her paperwork is moved through at record speed and that NOTHING hinders her file coming into OUR hands in the next 8 weeks, to the praise of His glorious Name!
"Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." Matthew 17:20
